Not a problem for me. That has always been my goal in decorating any space that I call home.
When I walk in my home and close the door on the chaotic world we live in I want to feel that I am releasing my breath. That I feel love and safety in my surroundings. That it simply is home.
I have found that in my small apartment.
That being said, I have realized that I will not be in this apartment forever. Changes are happening. My older sister is moving out to Arizona to live with my younger sister. She will be gone in a few short months. It will be a good thing for her because she isn't able to adequately take care of herself any longer. It will be good for my younger sister because it will give her some needed help with finances.
My mom is 92 and will not be here forever. She has said she just likes being with her friends.
As for me, I have finally decided that I need to stand up for what I want, and that is to be closer to my daughters and grandchildren. I am tired of living in limbo. My grandchildren are growing up and I am missing it and I am missing them.
I am going to Georgia in a few weeks and I am going to look at another retirement apartment. Their waiting list is two years, so it won't be a quick move, but at least I will feel like I am moving towards a goal that I really want.
Life is too short and I believe we need to live it as we want. We all deserve happiness.