The other day while visiting some of my favorite blogs, I read a post by Rue of An Old-Fashioned World that really struck a chord with me.
Rue was talking about the importance of just being herself.
The reason it really struck a chord is because I have been feeling a bit down. For the last year I have been very erratic about posting on my blog. To be honest I wasn't sure whether or not I wanted to carry on with it.
It's not that I don't like blogging, and I certainly love the friends I have made, but I have just felt that my life is off track. When your life is off track it is hard to find your focus.
I have been wondering if the grass is really greener on the other side.
Here's the thing. I love the apartment I moved into almost a year ago. (yes, it has really been that long) I was so happy to finally have a place of my own, and I am still loving coming home, shutting the door, and knowing that it is mine.
However, I miss my family. My daughters and grandchildren live in Atlanta. It is a long drive, I feel like it is a burden for me to stay with them, and my car is 18 years old.
There is also the fact that my older sister upped and moved to Arizona a month ago, without warning, to live with my younger sister. They left me with the sole responsibility of my mother.
So here is the thing. I feel like it is time for me to focus on what I want. On just being me. On writing what I want. On doing what I want. On living where I want.
Everyone else is doing those things. My mom loves living here and says she will never leave. I however, really don't want to stay. I have a very difficult time getting through the winters.
Do I know exactly what I want? No, but I want to spend some time deciding. I am 66 years old and economically challenged so that limits my choices. However, I have put my name on a waiting list for an apartment in Atlanta. It will be 18 months to two years before I can get in so that will give me time to prepare.
I am also researching places in Arizona in case I decide I want to move there.
Is the grass really greener on the other side? I don't know. What I do know is that life is getting shorter and I want to spend it how and with whom I want.
P.S. I promised to share my healthy eating plan and I will do that next week