REMEMBERING MY MOM

It has been a very hard few weeks. My mom who at the age of 94 maintained fairly good health, passed away November 30th. 

This photo was taken about 15 years ago. Not very clear.

She had a mild heart attack the week before Thanksgiving, and her health deteriorated very quickly over the next couple of weeks. 

My mom had always set a goal of living to be one hundred and we all believed she would. After all her older brother is still living at 98 and she was in better health than him. 

However, it wasn't meant to be and after a tough couple of weeks she left us. She had been admitted to the hospital on Wednesday the 28th and was very ill. Still, the nurses and the doctor were shocked when she was talking to them one minute and the next she closed her eyes and was gone.  

The last thing she told me as I walked out the door Thursday night was that she loved me and I said I love you too, Mom. 

She had told me several times over the last few days of her life that she was ready to go, but I didn't believe her. I'm glad that when she decided it was her time she went peacefully. 

My mom was always known as a firecracker, but everyone always talked about how sweet she was. I guess that was a good combination. Her feistiness will be missed.
I don't think we are ever prepared to lose our mothers, no matter how old we are. Like many mothers and daughters we didn't always have a perfect relationship, but I will miss her terribly. I already do. 

I find myself reaching for the phone to call her to talk about silly things. We spoke every day. I wish I could hear her voice just one more time. 

I know she is happy now and there is no more pain. She is reunited with family and friends who have gone before her. For her there is nothing but pure joy now.

Those of us who are left behind will have to survive on our memories.

P.S. I will hopefully get back to posting more soon. I am trying to clean out my mom's apartment and as I am also the executor of her estate there is a lot to do with that. 





  1. Dear Laura, I am so very sorry for your loss. I pray for peace and love for you and your family at this very difficult time.

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  2. HI Laura, Praying for you all. My Husband's mom passed away 10 days ago after a battle with Alzheimers. It's a different kind of grief as he had three years to say his goodbyes from when she last knew who he was. take your time- we will be here when you return to blogville! laura in CO

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  3. I am so sorry...she was a beautiful lady and I know you will miss her. It makes me sad to read this and I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. You have a big job ahead of you. I hope it goes well. Take care of yourself my friend. Just take it one day at a time. Sweet hugs, Diane

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  4. Laura I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I know how tough it is and I send many prayers your way

    Hugs

    Cindy

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  5. Oh Laura I am so sorry to hear your mom passed. My prayers and thoughts are with you as you do the hard work of going through her things and sorting all her affairs out. I think that is the hardest part. May you find wonderful treasures as you clean out her apartment to keep and treasure from her. Again there are no words to calm you heartbreak just know I am praying for you as your journey starts to grieve this great loss.
    Hugs,
    Kris

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  6. Laura, very sad to learn of your mom's death. Take the time you need. You have much to do as the executor and cleaning-out person. Remember to take time for yourself, to grieve your loss as well as look back for shared times. Memories can be very healing. My grandmother lived to be 104 so 100 was my dad's goal also. He died at 90 1/2. thoughts are with you as you travel your personal grief journey.

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  7. I am so sorry for your loss. Sympathy and condolences to you and your family.
    Peggy D

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  8. So sorry that she didn't make it to 100, Laura. However, seemed she was ready to go.
    Brenda

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  9. Oh Laura, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. I lost my dad 6 months ago, and even though he had been going downhill for years it was still so painful to say goodbye. Sending hugs and prayers your way. xoxo

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  10. I'm so sorry Laura, to hear about your loss. It is so very very hard to lose our mothers... my mom has been gone 17 years now, and sometimes it only seems like yesterday that I was visiting her and having a cup of tea, and her wonderful cookies! Hang on to some of your mom's treasures, as they will bring great comfort in the years to come. Words can't really describe that feeling of knowing our mom is gone.. It was a blessing for her to be able to say she loved you, and you her.. and to go fairly peacefully. Prayers and hugs are coming your way from me... Marilyn

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  11. I am sorry for your loss. I hope that sharing happy family memories will give you some comfort during the holidays. Peace to you and your family!

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  12. Laura, I've thought about you so many times since the passing of your Mom. I hope you are doing well and remembering her wonderful life must help. Sending hugs, prayers and much love.

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  13. Laura, So sorry to read about the passing of your mother. My mom was a tough lady and I miss her still. I am so glad you both told each other you loved one another. I am sending you hugs dear friend. I think of all my blog family and miss them. Wishing you a good Christmas...you know the kind your mommy would want for you too. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  14. Laura, I'm so sorry to read such sad news. You must be missing her a lot. I'll keep you in my thoughts through those difficult times.

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  15. May your mother's memory be a blessing.

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