REMEMBERING MY MOM

It has been a very hard few weeks. My mom who at the age of 94 maintained fairly good health, passed away November 30th. 

This photo was taken about 15 years ago. Not very clear.

She had a mild heart attack the week before Thanksgiving, and her health deteriorated very quickly over the next couple of weeks. 

My mom had always set a goal of living to be one hundred and we all believed she would. After all her older brother is still living at 98 and she was in better health than him. 

However, it wasn't meant to be and after a tough couple of weeks she left us. She had been admitted to the hospital on Wednesday the 28th and was very ill. Still, the nurses and the doctor were shocked when she was talking to them one minute and the next she closed her eyes and was gone.  

The last thing she told me as I walked out the door Thursday night was that she loved me and I said I love you too, Mom. 

She had told me several times over the last few days of her life that she was ready to go, but I didn't believe her. I'm glad that when she decided it was her time she went peacefully. 

My mom was always known as a firecracker, but everyone always talked about how sweet she was. I guess that was a good combination. Her feistiness will be missed.
I don't think we are ever prepared to lose our mothers, no matter how old we are. Like many mothers and daughters we didn't always have a perfect relationship, but I will miss her terribly. I already do. 
I find myself reaching for the phone to call her to talk about silly things. We spoke every day. I wish I could hear her voice just one more time. 
I know she is happy now and there is no more pain. She is reunited with family and friends who have gone before her. For her there is nothing but pure joy now.
Those of us who are left behind will have to survive on our memories.

P.S. I will hopefully get back to posting more soon. I am trying to clean out my mom's apartment and as I am also the executor of her estate there is a lot to do with that.