I'm not talking about the physical me, I know where those changes came from. Like a rock on a stormy coast, life has whittled and battered away at my exterior, leaving lines and sags that define my appearance and speak of my age. That is the persona that the world sees, but it is not who I really am.
It's the internal me, the part that no one else can see that sometimes seems to have morphed into someone I don't know. There are times when I want to reintroduce myself to me. I want to ask what happened to that person I was before I married, had children and grandchildren. Before I became the keeper of the flame. The person that wanted to hold everyone else together while somehow losing the person that I was. The person that I no longer recognized. The person that I am not sure anyone else recognized.
As I looked at myself I knew that somehow I wanted to rediscover that inner me. I wanted to find once again what it was like to live life for me. To enjoy life from my perspective. To not worry about what others wanted. To not compare. To just be me.
So how about you? Do you ever feel that you have lost the essential you? If so, would you like to rediscover it?