This is how I have felt about my inspiration lately. It is if it is there, but I just can't grasp it. So I have pulled back and let my blog lie fallow for a few days. I wonder if my voice is heard or if I even need for it to be heard. How do I reach back into myself and find the inspiration that drives me to write, to share, to inspire.
I know that my blog is in a difficult niche. It is not a niche that quickly brings thousands of readers or a steady income, but I also know that I have to support myself, and I so very often feel a sense of frustration with the whole process. How do I get that inspiration back and where do I find the energy to do all of the things I know I need to do?
I feel so gratified when I know that I have reached even one person. If one reader tells me they have been touched by my words then I am happy, but (and yes there is a but) I also know that I live in a world where I have to pay my bills, eat, and house myself. I know that I am frustrated by my limitations.
How do I overcome not understanding so much of what I read on how to be successful at this blogging business. There are so many terms that only the young seem to understand. Their blogging language seems so very foreign to me. They seem to live in a world full of youthful energy that has left me running and stumbling in last place.
I am working on getting back my inspiration, on once again finding my motivation. I will be making lists and meditating. I will be reading back over my inspiration posts. I will decide what is important and what is not. I will remind myself to not compete with others. I will find my own unique way to bring back my voice.