The answer came that ALL of the people who come through my life are sent to teach me, to help me to learn who I am and why I am here. But what happens when I don't learn I questioned? Then I was told someone else will enter to help me along my path. This does not mean that I was meant to be hurt, but it does mean that I was questioning who I am and so someone came who would help me get the answers I need. It does not mean that I chose to be a victim or that I I deserved to be one. So it all seems very confusing to me.
Maybe I am not meant to understand it all. Maybe I will keep searching for answers to who I am. I do know that I keep getting a message that I am a healer and that I must start by healing myself so I can help others heal. That all of the people who are sent through my life, whether they are here for a moment or a lifetime, are sent to help me with who I am, and that I am here to help them.
So I sift back through the memories of my life. I think back to why I became a counselor later in life. I remember sitting alone in a room with clients who were desperately hurting from the things that life had thrown at them. I listened to unspeakable acts of childhood sexual abuse. I wondered why these people suffered the way they did, and I know now that I don't have the answers.
I know now that as a healer I am meant to help myself and others find a simpler and more serene way of living. That we only have this moment. That we each have our own path and no one's path is better than another's.
When I set out to write my blog post this morning, this is not what I had in mind, but I felt compelled to get the words down. Many times I will leave posts like this a a draft. More of a journal of my thoughts then as something to share, but today I felt that I was meant to share my thoughts with you. Also, I wanted to start Women Speak back up. I feel that we need a forum where we can talk openly.
So I am wondering what you think of all of this. How do you feel about the people who enter your life? Do you believe that you have a purpose for being here? That as a unique individual you have a path to follow that tells you who you truly are?
It is bitterly cold here this morning. It is a perfect time to grab a cup of hot tea or coffee and chat.